"Because you're trying to get sympathy out of me for the wrong thing," he snaps. "This isn't your fault. It wasn't your choice. I'm doing what I know how to do. I'm sorry you're having nightmares. I'm sorry you don't have control over how you react. I'm not sorry for telling you it's absurd to feel so guilty over something you can't control when it wasn't even that bad! What do you want me to do, Alistair?"